I don’t usually put a lot of personal stuff here. This is after all, a blog about the gulch, not about me. But with not much happening here due to the fact that someone opened the gates of hell and flooded the place with heat and humidity, we have mostly been staying inside. I have been feeling both restless and bored. I have spent way too much time thinking about things I would have never given a second thought to before.

I have always been a tom boy at heart. I have never cared about or followed fashion trends. I have usually shied away from “girlie stuff”. I look for comfort, durability, utility and basic. While picking up the bedroom the other day, I found myself perusing my closet. It has a few pair of worn but comfortable jeans. Many probably too worn T shirts. A few sweatshirts, a few flannel (mens) shirts, two jackets (mens) and a winter coat, also a mens……..I am sensing a trend here.

There are no skirts, dresses or much in the way of feminine frippery. I can’t even remember the last time I wore a dress. Or a skirt. Or feminine shoes. Or even put on make-up. I keep telling myself that with my lifestyle, whats the point? Even my jammies are (for summer) mens boxers and wife beaters or (for winter) mens flannel sleep pants, sweats and mens thermal shirts.

Recently I have been thinking about cutting my hair. Usually I have no qualms when I think about doing this. My hair is long, reaching about half way down my back. The style I was thinking about is very short. This is something I have done in the past, looking forward to the change. But now, for whatever reason, I just can’t bring myself to go ahead and cut it off. It really needs to have a major trim, a good 3 to 4 inches of the ends are damaged, split and nasty looking. Plus I hate having hair in my face when I am working, especially in the kitchen. I wear it either up in a ponytail, or a braid or twisted up and held with a clip.

Two of the reasons that I can come up with for not doing this are: 1. Maintenance. I do want to have to go and have it trimmed back into shape. 2. I hate the stages of growing it out. Especially when it hits the stage of being too short to be long and too long to be short. Or maybe it is just that I would have to force myself to do more than wash and comb it.

Either it is one of the two stated reasons. or it is after taking stock of my wardrobe, I am afraid that I am turning into an old man. Or maybe I need to spend more time in the company of other women (hmmm, I wonder what that would be like…). I am usually either alone or I have just the company of Jeff2, and he always says I look good to him.

Or maybe it also has to do with the fact that our oldest daughter has recently joined us here at the gulch. She is not a die hard girlie girl either, but in contrast to her I feel like I have just become “one of the guys”.


5 thoughts on “Meanderings

  1. It sounds like you are in the mood for a change, and as much as I sometimes hate it, I think that change is good. If it were me, I would get my hair done, but I just like to get my hair done. 🙂

  2. I agree with Heather. You could get a partial cut, instead of going all out short, so you could see how you like the change. Maybe get bangs if you don’t have them, or a color change.

    I think it’s important to wear things that make you feel good. They don’t have to be expensive and you don’t have to be a slave to fashion. I often buy my clothing second hand.

    This may sound weird, but I’ve found that having a really terrific bra (one that fits well, feels good and is pretty) can make me feel like a million dollars, even in jeans and a t-shirt. That meant being honest with myself on size and paying a few more dollars for a really good bra. It beats having them break all the time and feeling like I’m stuffing myself into them.

    Hugs to you and I hope you feel more settled soon.

  3. Ah, one more thing…. accessories can make you smile. I mean it!

    I had a couple of bracelets and one really beautiful necklace that Lew gave me. It got old, though, and when I was getting dressed I felt blah. I purchased a new necklace and getting dressed was a bit more fun! I made a necklace and I had a few more choices…

    I decided to invest in a few really nice pieces of costume jewelry and getting dressed in the morning is fun! I picked things I could mix and match, and even purchased one necklace that has 6 different ways you can wear it. I could go almost a whole week with that one and have it be different.

  4. Oh. Go cut your hair. Doesn’t have to be short. Just get some layers and a few inches off. You will love it. Hair stuff is relaxing and makes you feel like a totally new person.
    Plus, the accessory post. Too true. Buy some cheap earrings, bracelets or rings at, well, anywhere. Forget real jewelry. Get something colorful.
    And, well, there are always……….shoes. Maybe one pair of sandals or slides that are funky. They WILL make you happy for a minute.

  5. Oh yes, I like the idea of some new jewelry. I don’t mean expensive stuff either. I love to buy a 5 dollar pair of earrings at the Wal-Mart now and then. Target has nice earrings as well. I don’t really wear rings or necklaces, but that is just me.

    What great suggestions. Heck, even a new purse is fun as well. Makes me want to go shopping too, but I must resist. Must Resist.

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